We're having a...

I've been sitting on pins and needles every since we found out we were expecting. Waiting and Wondering what our sweet baby was. Were we having a Boy or a Girl. If you know me at all, you know I've always been 100% girl. I always said I would cry my eyes out if we had a boy. At the beginning of the pregnancy I was still all girl. But as time progressed I started leaning more and more towards really really wanting a boy. I found myself thinking that I would actually be disappointed it we ended up not having a boy. Regardless it was all silliness. As long as our sweet little baby was HEALTHY, that was all that matter. People would ask me what I want and I'd say "a girl but I'm almost most positive we are having a boy." Boys are much more dominate on both our sides of the family. When the hubbs was asked by anyone he would reply with "healthy" but deep down he wanted a boy. 

We weren't going to find out early what we were having. The hubbs theory behind it was "why pay for something when we get it for free through our insurance." Yes Yes, I totally get it and understand BUT if we wanted until we where able to find out through the military hospital on post we would not find out till Mid May and I just could not at all wait that long. I mean sure it's only a month and a half away but STILL its so far away. I wanted to know, I needed to know!!! 

We made a appointment during my lunch break and met up to at Baby Bump. That morning getting ready for work and all through the work day I was a nervous wreck. I new I wanted to know what we where having, but a little part of me was thinking "once we find out, then its really real." "Wait who am I kidding its already real". I think it was just a bit over whelming maybe. 

I knew, I just knew it was a boy. The night before I asked the hubbs what he though we where having and he said a "girl." But the day of he said a "boy." 

We where all set up in the room it was about to happen... we where going to find out the gender of our sweet baby. The In-Loves were able to view the entire sonogram live on line. It was so cool to have them be apart of such a special time in our life, being so far away. 

Clear as crystal there he was, our little guy. You couldn't have mistaken it at all. 

We where able to watch our little guy on the big screen for a good 20 minutes during our appointment. He is such a active guy, even at our first ultrasound our midwife made a comment about how active he was. 

We couldn't be more excited about having a little boy. Everything looked good during the sonogram. Since its not a OB office they aren't able to really tell you details, but the tech informed us that nothing at all looked alarming to her. Blood flow was great, all his limbs, fingers and toes were accounted for. We couldn't be more blessed. 

I posted this picture on Instagram and Facebook this evening sharing with all our family and friends. 

We love love cupcakes so when I was tossing idea's around on how I wanted to share with everyone, this seemed perfectly fitting!!! 

I have another appointment coming up in about two weeks and I'm curious to see how our little man is doing, hear his heart beat and to hear what our mid-wife has to say. I only wish the hubbs was going to be here to go with me. At least he'll be here for our appointment in May, which is a big one. 

Uncle JT

How I told my Brother aka Bubby he was going to be a Uncle. 

About two weeks prior to him finding out during our weekly chat's we were talking about something and he had asked me then if I was pregnant. I quickly changed the subject and went on talking about something else. Later in the conversation it came up again. Seriously dude would you just drop it already I thought. I already had a plan of how were were going to tell him  and I've held out this long two more weeks wasn't going to hurt anything. 

Once we to our sonogram picture from our first appt. we made a copy of it and put it inside a card one of the girls at work helped make for me. 

I wrote a little message in it, told him I was sorry for not telling him earlier (which I knew he'd totally understand). I dropped it in the mail Wednesday afternoon and sat by my phone for the next few days. Friday came and went Saturday came and went. I figured 1) it didn't get there by Saturday and would arrive on Monday or 2) it did and he just didn't check his mail since they'd probably been out on the water all day. (they have a community mail area at the bottom of the hill, where he has to go check his box, so its not as simple as walking out the front door.) Sunday we were out grabbing lunch in the Westy and I left my phone in the van when we went inside to get our food. When we got back in the van I had 3 texted messages from Bubby. My heart immediately started racing and I got so excited. I looked at the hubbs before I even opened the texts from him and said JT know'. Sure enough I opened the text messages to find this. 

I figured he'd call me when he opened the card, but either way he finally knew. 

I called him back and he was so excited. He say's he knew it but I don't believe him, he's crazy. But hey maybe he did. Maybe its a sibling instinct. Who know's!!

Baby is due 15 days before Bubby's birthday which makes it that much more sweeter. My Bubby is one of my best friends and I just know he's going to make the best Uncle JT ever. 

Now that he know's I can finally fill him in on what we sent Nene for her birthday. She's the last Grandparent between not just JT and I but the Hubbs as well. We knew we wanted to do something extra special to let her know she was going to be a Great Nene. 

The First 3 Months / The First Trimester.

Well the first month was a breeze seeings as I had no clue I was even pregnant. I thankful didn't have any symptoms of pregnancy. In fact nothing at all seemed different or out of the norm for me.  My appetite was the same. My work outs where the same. I didn't seem anymore or less tired that I normally did. I still was eating the same foods. In fact I lost 2.2lbs. in the first week of the new year. 

The only thing that did change was my worry. Not being able to be seen by a doctor until almost a month after I found out drove me absolutely crazy. I was so worried, I just wanted to know that baby was ok and that I was doing everything I could to have a safe and healthy pregnancy. Our first appt. rolled around and I almost felt like it was a waste of time. It was a orientation appt. that took maybe  30 minutes. Answered some questions, had some blood work done and we where on our way. I was a bit disappointed. Still no morning sickness but the headaches have been something awful. I got the ok from the nurse to take tylenol which I've tried really hard not to have to do. But I have had to break down and take it 3 times now because my headaches were so bad. I'm not one to take meds just because, its gotta be really bad for me to take something. So when my headaches were so bad it had me sitting at the kitchen table in tears I had to given in and take something. 

The following month seemed to go by pretty quickly which was nice. The nausea that I did have has slowly gone away. Still haven't had any sickness thank goodness. I'm such a baby when I'm sick so I could only imagine how this would have turned out. March 1st, at 13 weeks we finally had our first real appt. Were we where able to see our growing baby. The hubbs I guess didn't realize we would get to see the baby on the ultrasound, he though we where just going to hear the heart beat. Which we did as well. I wasn't excepting to see a fully formed baby. I was expecting the baby to still look like a blob or a little gummy bear of sorts as people call it. But no you could clearly see the little legs, arms, head. It was so surreal. I knew at this appt. it would really hit me that we were having a baby. Not that it hadn't before but seeing our baby made it that much more real. We both quickly confirmed that there in fact was only one. I'm thrilled to report that there is in fact only one baby. With a strong heart beat of 176. Our midwife said everything looked great and seemed very happy with how things were progressing and going, which was a sign of relief. We are still tracking September 15th due date. Which seems so far away. Yet I know it will be here before we know it. 

I don't wanna say the first trimester was a breeze because it definitely came with its fair share of struggles and hard times. However I know compared to many others I've had it pretty easy. Here's to hoping the next 6 months go by with little to no problems or sickness. 

Not the greatest of pictures (on the ultrasound it's self it looked much better) but we officially have our first picture of our baby. 

Boy or Girl

Boy or Girl, did you find out or let it be a surprise? We've still got a way's to go till we are able to find out the gender but I'm dying inside wanting to know. There's no way I could wait till the birth to find out and thankfully the hubbs is on the same page as me when it comes to this. I'm a huge panner, talk about some serious OCD here. I want to have babe's name picked out (thats a whole other story), the nursery designed and finished. You know the whole nine yards. Oh and of course everything will be monogrammed (ok maybe not everything) so there needs to be plenty of time for that. I want to have a clearly defined nursery. I'm not a gender neutral kinda gal. Nothing wrong with that at all, just not for me. Everyone has their reasonings for doing what they choose to do when it comes to finding out the gender. But for us / me, I want to know. I'm already going crazy not knowing. 

If you found out the gender of your baby how did you do it? 

*A gender reveal party?

*Did you surprise your Spouse?

*Simply have your doctor tell you?

*Did you do something special / outta the box for the two of you?

I'd love to hear your idea's / suggestions. 

Easy & Healthy

When the hubbs deployed in November of 2014 I made a huge change in my fitness and nutrition routines. Really focusing on me and building a better life for myself, the hubbs and our future. Now more than ever I really need to stay focused on my goals and stay on track with my nutrition and workouts. Its not just about me any more but a growing babe as well. I won't even lie or sugar coat it, pregnancy absolutely terrifies me. The weight gain, the sickness, the delivery, my body changing. Did I mention the weight gain. AAAHHH!!!!! Its all so scary and over whelming, I know its one of the best times in our / my life but it still is so much to take in. I plan to stick to my workouts, running and biking as long as I can and I have the ok from my doctor. Thankfully being in a really good routine before hand helps me keep that momentum going.

I know everyones situation and experience is different and I want to make are I have as easy and smooth painless pregnancy and birth as possible. So I am going to try to do everything possible to make that happen. I know there will be those moments of absolute misery, but I can only hope they are far and few between.

Speaking of a easy pregnancy, I know that the most important part is the simple fact that babe is 100% ok and healthy. I want nothing more than to have a healthy babe. I know that as long as babe is healthy and well everything else will fall into place. However I may have my finger's crossed that babe is a girl. It's always been a dream of mine to have a little southern girl. I think we are pretty settled on just having one. (that's the plan as of now at least.) I do know that I would be just as happy and over joyed with a handsome little boy to. Girls are just so adorable and so much fun!! Right!!!!

How I Told the Hubby He was Going to be a DADDY.

After tossing around a couple idea's I decided to have a little mini photo shoot done by my friend / director from work. The hubbs just loves having his picture taken, insert sarcasm here lol. Knowing he had off on Friday I convinced him that Brittany needed a couple to practice shooting some Valentines day pictures for next month. It took a little arm twisting considering we'd just had her do our pictures two months prior. Well with the expected rain on Friday, as well as getting a little antsy I was able to talk the hubbs into taking pictures on Thursday. It worked out prefect because the weather was absolutely beautiful.

We each had a sign, I told him to write one thing he loved most about me and that I was doing the same. I love what he wrote, he has a way with keeping things simple yet so sweet. 

I'll let the pictures do the talking....

Standing with my back to him I was beyond nervous but excited to turn around. We'd been talking about this off and on for the past 9 years. We'd always said if it happens unplanned we will make it work. But finally settling down and deciding ok we where ready was scary. But was he really ready? Ready to be a Daddy and take on a whole new role?! Our lives where going to be changing drastically in a matter of months. I couldn't wait to see the look on his face, to hear his reaction and thoughts. Ready or Not this was happening, our life was changing and there wasn't any turning back. 

I can't thank Brittany enough for taking the time out of her day to do this for her. She is a absolute doll. I not only love working for her but I love having her as a friend!!! :) 

The Day My World Changed Forever

Over the weekend I though maybe.....just maybe. No it couldn't be, it's to early its to soon. We'd only taken this path just a short 5 months earlier. This couldn't be happening.

Monday morning on my way to work I texted my Spouse (aka Sarah).

I still wasn't 100% sold that this could even be a possibility. My lunch rolled around I went up to Walgreen's. I picked up a 2 pack and figured I'd have one for now and one for in the morning. You know just in case I didn't like the answer it gave me or wanted to double check and see if maybe it changed. That's when I looked down and saw a box with three. Ok what the heck at least this way if the out come wasn't what we where hoping for I'd have another one on hand for next month.

Back to work, I took the test. "It's the middle of the day I though, it's not going to happen". Your suppose to do this first thing when you wake up.

I stuck it in my cabinet and went to get my lunch. A couple minutes later I came back to check it and found this....

OMG, I lost it. I started bawling my eyes out. This couldn't be happening, was this real?! I was a ball of emotions, excited, surprised, scared! Let's be real I was totally overwhelmed.

Yes we had been trying but apart of me didn't think it would happen this soon after all it had only been 5 months. (really 4 from the time I got pregnant)

When the Spouse found out she was expecting I was the first one to find out. We where chatting on FB and she sent me a picture on messenger. So it only seemed fitting that A- she was the first to know (all along I knew I tell her first) and B- that I send her a picture. She knew I was at work so after her reply of ...

I called her back. The next half hour we chatted about so much. It was a world wind. I still was in a little disbelief. She helped me figure out the due date, which made it even more real.

My next step was figuring out how I was going to tell the hubbs. I played around with a couple idea's of course I went to Pinterest. I wanted to do special and different. I mean after all we've waited almost 9 years to even consider trying. So I wanted it to be a moment we would both remember forever.

Tuesday the following morning I took a second test just to see if maybe just maybe it had changed and the first one was a fluke. No such thing. Apparently there's no such thing as a false positive. This was the result I got.