Monday, November 10, 2014

"I'll Fly Away" ........I Can't Believe It's Been a Year Already...

I really and truly can not believe its been a year since I lost the most amazing woman in my life. 
Read Part One How it Happened
Read Part Two Forever Changed

I remember it like it was yesterday, hating the world and everyone in it for taking away one of the most important people in my life. There's not a single day that goes by that I don't think about her. Wishing so badly I could call her and tell her that we survived our trip to NYC, that it snowed in Cola, that we moved states, that we bought our first home, that I'm going back to school. I want to tell her what we are going through right now, and have her support. There's just so much that I want to tell her, I always called her whenever I went on a road trip so she could keep me company and now I've got nothing. Going home to Texas doesn't seem to matter as much any more. That side of my family is completely changed now that she is gone, its heart breaking what the loss of a person can do to a family. Many day's it still doesn't seem real that she's not here any more. I still have her phone number / contact in my phone with her address. I can't bring myself to delete it. If only I had voice mails from her to hear her sweet voice. She always had the best advice and stood behind every decision I made, even if she didn't like it or think that it was the best. She was my best friend my everything and now she's my angel. She was the rock that held our family together and its slowly slipping apart now. As much as I hate some days that I moved away from home because it mint I missed out on so much time with her, I truly believe it was the best decision I ever made. Even more so now, I'm not sure how I could physically go on living in the same town knowing she was not there, were I could just drive over and pop in. It's hard I struggle with it almost daily. Its on the top 5 of the worst days of my 27 years for sure. I said it before and I truly believe it, she held on for me for one more day not to leave us on our Anniversary. I remember the last conversation I had with her on the phone, I had just gotten off work and I was headed on post. Driving over the bridge I told her I loved her so much and to get better because I was coming home to see her. It took all she had to respond back to me, but she knew it was me and she told me she loved me and that's the best feeling in the world. My heart breaks, how did a year go by so quickly. I'll never be the same, I know I have to keep moving forward with my life but there's some days I just don't know how I'm going to get through. 
Thank the Lord I have an amazingly supportive husband because if it wasn't for him I'd be a complete  disaster. 
I miss you Mamaw so so much, you were the worlds best Mamaw ever!!!! 11-10-13
I am so grateful that God blessed me with two wonderful grandmothers. Whom I'm proudly named after and wouldn't have it any other way. 

Hands down Coolest Mamaw ever!!!! Love you My Angel!!!! 

Sunday, November 9, 2014

7 Year Wedding Anniversary

I really and truly can not believe we've been married for 7 years Today. Some days it seems like the time has flown by and then other days it seems like we've been married for just a short couple of month. I've been looking back through pictures over the past 7 years this weekend. We've been through so much, more than many people do in a life time. Good times and Bad, Hard time and Easy all of it which has made us and brought us to were we are today in our marriage. I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. He's my Rock and I'm more in love with my husband today then I was 7 years ago when we said our "I Do's". 
We celebrated back in October with a weekend trip to Chattanooga, TN (that yes I still need to blog) but for now a trip down memory lane through the past 7 years. 

Wedding Day at the DWA 11-09-07 (Dallas World Aquarium)
1st Year Anniversary - Texas 2008 
2nd Year Anniversary - Hawaii 2009
3rd Year Anniversary Hawaii - 2010 
4th Year Anniversary South Carolina - 2011 
5th Year Anniversary South Carolina - 2012
6th Year Anniversary South Carolina 2013
7th Year Anniversary Tennessee - 2014

I love you baby so much and I am the luckiest girl in the world because you chose to be with me out of any one else. I can't wait to see what the next 7+ years and the many more after that have in store for us. Your my best friend and we share a life full of Pure Bliss, 
Always and Forever and Thensome!!!! 

Happy 7 Year Wedding Anniversary to us!!!! 

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Go Commando 5k

Checking out the Start line for B's first ever race!!!

I can't believe this was my first race of 2014 and here we are nearing the end of the year. I took a couple months off from running with the move from SC to TN but I definitely have found my groove back and am loving it. A Co-worker of mine (Barbie- pictured above) has recently taken up running and she's doing great. We signed up for the Go Commando 5K Race back in August I think it was and have been training ever since. I struggled through two injury but managed to heel and recover from both before race day. The Owner of the School were we work at was also running the 5K race that morning. We saw him before hand and chatted a bit and then that was that. B and I didn't stay together, we didn't plan to either. We both run and different paces and so we knew that wasn't going to happen and we were ok with that. About 3/4 of the way through I passed Mr. H when he was going the opposite direction towards the turn around. I had quickly glanced down at my watch when he yelled "I'm gonna catch up with you". I looked up to notice it was him and said Yea Yea keep going. Sure enough I was about 1/10th's away from the finish line and I hear someone come up from behind me saying "I caught up with you." I couldn't believe that he did, I was either running slower or he picked up his pace quick. (Let's go with he picked up his pace) When we crossed the finish line I was just a few steps ahead of him, so not to bad. There was also a Half Marathon and a 10K race going on at the same time, so there was runners coming in from all three races. 
I didn't come in were I was hoping to time wise and I am completely ok with that. (I was literally a minute and a half off) I did however place 14th in my age group, 86th out of 309 females and 183rd place over all out of 482 people. So something to be proud of for me for sure.
I love the rush you get from racing I just HATE having to get up so early to be at the start line. The city we live in there's not many races that take place so you have to go to Nashville, which isn't a long drive at all, its just the getting up early part. Oh the feeling you have after you finish though is all worth it. 
There's a 5K coming up in January at the Nashville Zoo that I'm thinking of doing, looks like it should be pretty fun and best part is, it doesn't start till later in the afternoon. 

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Little Bit of This & That

Some Instagram repeat photo's some not so much!!!! But I wanted to have them documented here for the memories and further reference or whatever you have it. Fun stuff around the house, out and about with new friends!!! Life in Tennessee if you'll have it. 

Crappy cell pic. but I had some monogrammed decals made for our wine glasses and they go perfectly with my cutting board my EDS girls had made for me!!! It's true you can't have to many monograms. :)
 I finally submitted all of my paper work to have my CDA renewed and the turn around time was pretty quick once they processed my paper work. My first push for going back to school was accomplishing this back when we lived in Hawaii. I wish I would have gone through with it then but I didn't. However I have been given the opportunity to go back to school under a state government funded grant  through were I work. I will only have to pay a small fee for each class, which is a double bonus. I completed the first step this past week that is required to start classes. Certificate in Hand!!! 

I've been itching for some curtains on our back patio for a good bit now and we finally have them. Our neighbors on the left side have two side windows that peep right into our back patio and well sometimes we'd like a little privacy. We do not know them and have seen them outside maybe 3-4 times since we've lived here. We kept going back and forth on how we wanted to hang them up so I'd kinda given up. A few weeks ago when the In-Loves were in town I'd mention to my FIL about the curtains and when I was in class that night…..well some one was a little busy. I love the way they turned out, still a little tweaking to do but Happy. PS: loving my Mum hanging off the corner. (its filled in quite well since then.)
 One of my favorite meals I adopted from the South is Chicken Bog. If you've never had it you should really try it. Drizzled with a little bit of Franks Hot Sauce, talk about melt in your mouth yummy. I haven't made it since we've lived here in TN so it was long over due a few nights ago. I've also had a thing here lately for oven roasted corn. Its just so good, I can't get enough of it!!! 
 We had a moment, our marriage isn't perfect but it's perfect for us. And I'd never have it any other way!!! When I left work last week knowing I wouldn't see the hubbs till later that night because we had separate engagements I found this card in my car. He knows the way to my heart, he melts me in so many ways and I love this man to pieces!!!! 

To Be Continued…….

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Life Lately....

Life LATELY has been a roller coaster on full speed. There’s been up hill’s were I’ve struggled getting to the top and then there’s been down hill’s were I’ve flown right on bye. There’s been the straight and narrow path’s were I’ve cruised right by smoothly. By no mean’s has it been a easy ride. I feel like I haven’t blogged in forever because I’ve been so busy with LIFE but in reality I haven’t had much going on. Working more than 15 minutes away from home might not seem like a lot to many people but for me it is. At our past two duty station’s I worked less than 10 minutes from were we lived. Previously when I lived at home (Texas) I commuted almost a hour to and from work every day, so you wouldn’t think 15 minutes or so was that big of a deal but it is. After not having a long drive so a while now. Sure it gives me time to think and de-stress from my day, but it also gives me time to think about the million things I need to do at home or need to do the next day at work. On a REALLY good day (which isn’t often) and I do get out right at 5pm I’m not home till 5:20-25 because of traffic. Then I still have to prep and cook dinner, clean up after dinner, walk the pups, get my running stuff and lunch packed for the next day. Once I actually sit down after all that its already past 8pm most day’s. I'm lucky enough to catch up on a show or two while I surf the web before I catch myself falling asleep on the couch. Blogging.....RIGHT, I always say tomorrow TOMORROW tomorrow I will get caught up and tomorrow never seems to happen. I’ve been trying really hard to become better about not being on the my laptop when the hubbs and I are home watching TV together but damn you pinterest you suck me right in. Let’s not talk about the fact that I feel like I must read everyone’s blog post’s that I follow. There are a few I tend to skip from time to time but I really only follow and comment on my favorite reads 90% of the time. I have so many drafts I’ve started up and haven’t finished but need to because I want to have the memories documented for later on in life. I totally failed on writing / typing up my September goals and here we are just a couple day’s away from October 1st. I feel like time has flown by dear lord please let October go by slow, I’m not ready for it to start and I’m sure as heck I’m not ready for it to end. 

Work has been ruff, really that’s a understatement. I tell myself I’m staying and sticking it out because I don’t like change and that in its self will be harder having to start all over. But really if I’m not happy with how things are going right now how is that any better for myself. I know good things come to those who wait but I’ll be the first to admit I’m a very impatient person. But I’m trying for my sake and the other’s around me. Some day’s I love my job were I’m at and some day’s I can’t stand it or the people I work with. Here lately this past week its been on the latter side of the two. Going into details would just be pointless and take to much time so I’ll be brief. There’s TWO groups of the school were I work. Your either “IN” with the cools kids aka management or your not. A- a smoker you get a extra ever so how many breaks you need a day to go “get cancer” as my friend Nanc call’s it. B- have drama in your life and throw a pity party so everyone feels sorry for you and falls for your sappy stories, or C- your BF’s with the owner’s or at least you think you are there for you feel like you do no wrong and get away with anything and feel as though you can walk all over me when ever you want. I absolutely hate HATE the favoritism here it makes me so sad. It’s not lie I loved my old school in Cola. for so many different reason’s and to hear from so many different co-workers and parents about how awful things have been in my class since I left just breaks my heart. I’d give anything to go back. There’s alway’s those 

And because ever blog post needs a picture!!! Here's one from the day the hubbs came back from training earlier this month!! Gosh I missed that man when he was gone!!!!

Monday, September 15, 2014

The In-Loves Came to Town!!!

The In-Loves came to visit for the week, so we had the chance to show them around were we live and the Nashville area. Our first our of state visitors. Hey any reason for me to take off work right!!!! We had a few things planned already and then kinda of just went with the flow on other days. I absolutely love the In-Loves, they are so sweet and do so much to help us when they are here. It's always a great time when they come to visit. I didn't end up taking many pictures while they were here but here are a few. 

Breakfast at one of our Favorite places!!!! 
Loveless Cafe
I ventured out of my box and got the fabulous Chicken and Waffles with their Home Fries. Seriously did not disappoint. The money is in their biscuits though, down right mouth watering. I bought another package of batter to bring back with us, along with their fried chicken batter. 
"Somebodies gonna slap your momma its so good!!!" 
(Our good friend Big E always say's that, so it seemed fitting)

After breakfast we headed over to the Antique Archaeology Store, other wise known as American Pickers. We love that show and just so happens the In-Loves do to. I will say I was not as impressed with it as I though I would be. I'm not really sure what I was expecting to see but at least I can save we've been. 
That was followed up by a trip to the Country Music Hall of Fame. A must see for any one coming to the Nashville area right. It was nice, pretty big again I was expecting more but I can say I've been and have absolutely no desire to go back. Unless we have visitors again of course. Oh and I had so show my love for Cola!!! 

Oh and why not completely take advantage of my Mother-In-Love offering to take our picture every were we went. Oh why yes, we'd be glad to pose for you. My favorite of the three is the one in the middle. I swear he smiles, just not for the camera most days. 
We did and saw so much more this was just a little peak into our week with them here.
Of course with all good things they must come to a end and so the stay-cation for us and the vacation for them was over. Not with out a stop at Dunkin on the way to the Airport though. I can't wait for them to come back out to visit, we always have such a relaxing fun time and they are seriously the easiest house guest ever!!! 
My 1st Mint Hot Chocolate of the season!!!! 

Sunday, August 31, 2014

August Goal Recap

As you may remember I set a few goals for myself over the month of August with the hubbs being gone. Over all I didn't do to bad, however there were a few area's I didn't do great in at all. Dear running injury you really cramped my running this month. More on that in a bit. I'm a little late at getting my recap posted for August, so September's goals will be up with in the next day or two.
To jog your memory here are my August Goals.

*Running- Well I most certainly didn't meet my 75 mile goal. But for good reason, well not by my choice that is. I sadly ended up straining my hip flexor and that kinda cramped my running. I made it through about half the month and totaled 29 miles. Not were I wanted to be at all, but it happens. I've never had this problem before and let me tell you it absolutely sucked. It hurts, so bad to even walk sometimes. So the rest of the month consisted of lots of stretching and icing my leg / hip. I added in a couple different work out routines at home though to kinda of make up for not being able to run and I've got my plank time up to 2 minutes and 31 seconds. I'm quite proud of myself. :)
*Saving- I actually didn't do to bad on this goal at all. I kept track of everything I spent and made sure I didn't make any unnecessary purchases. As funny or silly as it might sound it felt so good coming home at the end of the day and marking $0 on my calendar for that day on not spending anything. I was able to put a little extra aside into our savings accounts like we had planned and make a few purchases for the hubbs Welcome home gift. Not to mention I put some fun money aside for when the In-Loves come in town next weekend.

*Classroom--Success!!! I completed my classroom updates and set up. Shelves & Cubbies are labeled, Pictures are put up on wall and my centers are relabeled and they look so much better. There are a few small things that I still need to do to get ready for our be yearly evaluation coming up in November. Classroom art project, a on going art project with the kiddos, print and hang pictures from last weeks events. I completed all of their evaluations to see were they stand and have started working with them one on one in the area's they are struggling in. Over all I'm pretty happy with were I stand in my classroom.

*Eating OutThis one was a complete SUCCESS, I am happy to say I didn't eat out not one time. I did stop and get a tea from Sonic a time or two which was much needed dealing with my kiddos sometimes. But aside from that I either ate at home or at work. (lunch is provided to teachers when the kids eat) I did have a girls night out for dinner one night but that fell through. Another night I went out with a group of people from our neighborhood to a local bar. A few people ordered food and offered me some and I so kindly declined. This past weekend T from the neighborhood invited me to meet up with her and her friend J at Dunkin Donuts for girl time and "coffee". I don't drink Coffee and wasn't going to eat so I took my lemonade in with me. That same evening T invited J and I to grab dinner and then over to her house to work on a little project. I went with them to dinner at Zaxby's but ate before hand so I wasn't tempted to eat while I was there. After about a month of no eating out it really wasn't as hard as I though it would be to. Will power I tell you, it WORKS!!!! 
*Sweet's & BakingAnother SUCCESSful goal in the books. This one was hard let me tell you!!! We / I don't eat a lot of sweets but goodness every now and then everyone needs a piece of chocolate or some Froyo. The weekends were harder than the weekdays. Being home working around the house or veggie out on the couch every so often I would get a sweet tooth itch. I pushed through and didn't give in. There was no baking done in that oven of ours either. Boy that was a hard one, with the Pinterest randomness searching I found a few…ok many new yummy sweet treats that were so tempting to try but I didn't.

*PuppiesI actually did even better than I had planned out for myself on this goal. I walked the pups every day through out the month of August with the exception of only 3 days. Another one I kept track of on my calendar and made me fill good about myself by marking it down each time I'd come home from our walk. Our 3 days we didn't walk were because 1) it was raining one evening, 2) my horrible hip injury, 3) a late night errand run. We ended out the month with a 5.2 mile walk this evening at a local park / walking trail here called the Greenway. It was our (the pups and I) first time there, it wasn't to bad at all. It was really pretty and the whole trail area that we took was shaded. Next time we'll have to check out the other side of the trail. There were a couple of days I took them on two walks which I know they loved. It def. made me feel a bit better considering I couldn't run.

August shaped up to be a pretty good month even with the hubbs gone. I am looking forward to September and what it has in store for us both. I've defiantly been focusing more on my health and fitness here lately and its been going great. Makes me feel so much better about myself.
Here's to SEPTEMBER, its my brothers birthday month so its bound to be a good one, oh and the IN-LOVES are coming in a week YAY!!!!!! 

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Back to School….

…..For this girl. After I can't even think of how long I'm heading back to the classroom. To be completely honest this is something I should have done forever ago. I wish all the time I would have gone back before now. But better now then never I suppose. I've been given this amazing opportunity through my new school were I work and I'm glad I took them up on it. 
I'm taking a 30 hour course at APSU - Austin Peay State University. I'm going through the TECTA program. TECTA is funded by the government and helps further your career in early childhood education. The course goes through the end of September. Short and Sweet but it slowly eases me back into the groove of things for the Spring. When I'll start two classes a night for  the next two - three years. I'm excited to finally not only have my CDA in Early Infant and Toddler but I'll also have it in Preschool as of December 2015. After the first two full semesters and receiving my Preschool CDA, I'll continue further towards my Associates in Early Childhood Development. My long term goal is to become a Kindergarten or 1st Grade Teacher. Like I said I sometimes wish I would have done this many times before but no going back now. I'm pushing full force forward from here and really focusing more on me and myself. Not only with my health and fitness but my schooling and future as well. 
All classes are in the evening which allows me to continue working full time. Actually because most of the programs are funded through the government you are required to still work a certain amount of hours per week to qualify for the funding. 
I was super excited to start this new me, but I was scared to death that I was going to get lost driving on campus. I was freaking out on the inside worried I'd be late because I couldn't find the classroom or I would have to walk forever because I couldn't find parking. I worked straight through my shift today vs. taking a lunch so I could leave a hour early. This way I could go home, walk the pups, grab some dinner, get ready and still make it on time. Whelp I tell you what…..I was early- 15 minutes to be exact, I found parking right outside the door, the classroom was right to the left when I walked in and I was greeted by the instructor. All that stress and worry for nodda thing. I'm not complaining though. I braved it up and walked to the middle of the room and took a seat. Any other day before I woulda stuck closer to the back, I'm trying here though, really trying. 
Classes are every Monday and two Saturday's (BLAH) except this next week because of the Holiday we are having class on Wednesday. 
Of course I had to take advantage of my "First Day of Preschool" plaque I made for my kiddo's. 
The first day of class went well, and I'm looking forward to what's in store over the next several weeks. 

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Still Adjusting to our New Home State

While I've been living in the Upper South (we'll call it that), for 2 and a 1/2 months now….I'm still trying to adjust to life here in Tennessee. We are enjoying the area, finding new things to see and do every so often. Trying out new restaurants, local shops on the weekends and checking out the new homes being built in our neighborhood when we go on our evening walks. It's almost about done (give or take to the end of the year) and it will be complete, which means no more construction traffic. Thankfully it really hasn't been to bad. I'm sure I'll change my thoughts on that once they start building directly in front of our house. It's officially been 1 week since the hubbs left for training. Although it seems like he's been gone for much longer but at the same time this past week has gone by pretty quickly. So that's a good thing right?!?!? I've still be on the outs with making friends and meeting new people. Its a daily struggle that I've been going through, life I suppose. I have met a couple girls at work that I've become pretty well comfortable with chatting and getting to know. However nothings gone past work yet. I did have dinner plans this evening with one of them but that fell through last minute. Should have seen that coming I suppose. I'm really trying not to let it get to me and remind myself that it just takes time. I was in such a funk when we moved from Hawaii to The South that I didn't give myself a chance to enjoy the first 4-6 months I was there. I am determined not to let that happen here. I'm really trying to focus on me and making a better life for myself and my husband. We like the city we are stationed in and hope to make it home for a good few years. Since buying a house here I really want us to be able to enjoy it and make a ton of wonderful memories here.
This past weekend I went down to the Cumberland river which has a beautiful running / walking path over looking the river. A large marina, filled with all different boats that make me giddy, a boat ramp, several parks, a pond with a mile paved / wooded path around it and a large dog park. It really is a beautiful place to go for a run. I for see many more miles being ran there in my future. Unfortunately I am suffering a minor injury right now that I am having to wait for it to heal before I can hit the pavement. Nothing serious at all, thank goodness because I'm not sure what I'd do if it was. Running is a huge part of my life and a great therapy session for clearing my head. Hoping to be back on the streets next week adding those miles.
Sunday morning I woke up and made myself a fabulous plate of Banana Pancakes. They are seriously my favorite go to meal that I love to indulge into. I enjoyed them out on my back patio deck with the pups. It was a beautiful morning, listening to the birds chirp and the wind blow. Add in there some Peach Tea and Pandora the only thing that would have made it more perfect would have been if the hubbs was here. Soon enough though, I'm trying to make the most out of my days and by doing so I've been catching up on past TV series lol. Of course nightly walks with the pups and dinner on the patio. Its my new favorite place to spend my evenings unwinding from work. I'm wanting to add curtains to one side of the deck, to have a bit of privacy from our neighbors on that side. Its just figuring out how I want to do it. Well that and breaking down and actually following through with it. 
We did know one family here before getting stationed here, we were all stationed together in Hawaii. In fact they were a big reason on why we decided to come here for our next duty station. Any how there two sweet kiddos went to the same preschool were I am working at now. That's actually how I found out about it. Any how little O started back to school on Tuesday. B starts school in a couple weeks and she has two classes were she has to go to campus for them so O will come to school Tues. & Thurs. He's not in my class sadly, he's a few years to young but I am so excited that I now get to see him a couple times a week at work as well. He really is such a wild fun child and makes you laugh!!! Today was his second day at school and he did much better today. I snapped this pic of us today on the playground. 
While having dinner out on the deck this evening there must of been a number of people walking by in the front. The pups kept pacing back and forth from the gate and a little gap under the fence. Bailey eventually laid down and stuck her head under the fence. It was to funny, she just laid there and watched them. Some times in moments like these they really do melt my little heart. :) 

Tomorrow's Friday, and even through I don't really have any plans for the weekend I'm looking forward to it. I might make a trip to the Farmers Market, depending on the weather. Its looking like its suppose to rain. Fingers crossed it doesn't. Hope you and yours are doing well and having a great week!

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Off My Game

The hubbs left yesterday for a month give or take, training. Army Calls and he Goes. At least when we were On The Trail and he was a Drill SGT he would go away for a few days every so often but he was always on post just a few miles away. Most of those nights I'd take him dinner or a drink so I still got to see him. Not this time around, he's thousands of miles away and has crappy cell service at that. Blah. When he moved out to TN and I was still in the South we were apart for just over a month but that was by choice. By no means was it any easier, it still sucked but at least we had a say in that part. I took a long lunch yesterday from work to go take the hubbs to work and say our see you soon's. :( It was no bueno, I had a huge lump in my throat when I had to tell him bye yesterday. Its been over three years since we've had to be apart from each other for longer than a couple weeks at a time. Life On The Trail, Tradoc. Welcome back to the real army were duty calls and they go. Blah!! I headed back to work shortly after I dropped him off and it hadn't really set in yet. It wasn't until I was walking out of work that I "remembered" he was gone and I'd be going home to a empty house. Well plus the pups. There goes that lump in my throat again, I held back the tears as I made the drive home. The one good thing about working 15 minutes from home is the fact that it gives me time to think, clear my head, gather my thoughts.
I'm still getting used to staying in our new house by myself. During the day its no big deal but at night its another story. We live out near the country, so there's a million different noises being made all through the night. Creepy!!!! I know a couple people in our neighborhood but no one I'm close to. It is a safe nice area, so that makes me feel comfortable being here alone. This morning was normal, he's always gone when I get up for work so nothing different there. But still the though knowing he's not going to be here when I get home from work just gets me down. Today at work was just a off day for me. I'm sure it didn't help that I was up late last night. My class was in a funk, I kept having to get on to them for stupid little stuff and then my co-worker (one of my only friends at wrk) was leaving early and I'd be there pretty much by myself. Who was I going to talk to?!?! Then there was my run, I go on my lunch every day. I headed out, had a plan in my head just as I always do and it started off just fine. That was short lived and failed right after the first mile. I pushed through and kept going, around mile 1.50 I was hurting my leg was feeling tight and I wasn't myself. I tried telling myself it was all in my head and pushed on through another 1.50 miles and that was all I could manage. I hated more than anything not finishing what I set out to do but that happens. Its only been the 2nd bad run I've had in two months but still I let it get to me more than I probably should. It happens, it will only make me stronger in the long run. I am always reminding myself that life's not perfect and so not all of my runs are going to be. I think since I'm not training for a big race right now I forget about the bad days. I know tomorrow's a new day and I'm calling it a early night tonight. I did take the pups on a walk this evening just as I had planned, didn't spend any money today and even cooked dinner. Night two done and over, sure there's many more to come but two less to go through. Not that I'm counting or anything. 
Well enough of my rambling nonsense. I'll leave you with a picture of us from yesterday. 
I'm hoping to get back into the whole blogging thing more, now that I have don't have a lot going on in the evenings. I've been slacking something crazy. :-/

Friday, August 1, 2014

August Goals

The hubbs is going away for a month (august) bummers (darn you army and your training schedule)!!! So I'm taking full advantage of it, well the best I can and setting some personal goals for myself. I came across the idea from one of my fabulous fellow bloggers Tamara who wrote a set of goals for herself for the month of August. I might start a monthly goal post's here, simply to help keep myself accountable. We'll see. I really can't believe this starts the 3rd month (4th month for the hubbs) that we've been living in Tennessee. Were has the time gone, we've settled in quite well and are enjoying our life here but I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss living in the South!!! There's not a moment that goes by that I don't wish we were there still.

*Running- I've been doing really good with my running, adding miles and dropping my pace. It's still a work in progress and that's ok with me. It'll always be a work in progress. I took some time off so right now I'm just working on getting back to were I was. Over July I ran a total of 60 miles, for August my goal is to run 75 miles. I've calculated it out and its completely doable, staying with the same routine I've been doing. I also have a time goal set for for my 5k time. I'd like to get it down below my fastest 5k time which is 31 minutes. I'm not a fast runner by any means but Its something I love to do and gives me a since of accomplishment and pride. I've got 3 minutes to drop and I'll be at my first goal time. I'm determined to get there by the end of the month.

*Saving- I'm (we're) always about saving, this is a on going goal. We have 4 different savings accounts set up. I'm kinda OCD about our finances (as I'm sure a lot of people are). #1- savings account that we put money in each month from BAH to pay our Mortgage. #2- savings account for our home, the long term goal with purchasing a home is/was to build a nest egg for our future. We pull money from BAH to go into this account as well. #3- savings account for the hubbs, we call it the Gun Fund. Each pay period we put a certain amount in it and he uses that for what ever wants for his gun / reloading hobby. #4- our main savings account that we put the majority of our funds into. The one we don't touch, we've worked so hard to build it up. So while the hubbs is gone, we will be spending less on gas, food, going out, and shopping etc. So my plan is to divide that up evenly into our savings and buckle down even more on what we put aside. In hopes to help us reach our end of the year savings goals even sooner.

*Classroom- Its going on the 3rd month at my new job, in my new classroom and it still seems to be a work in progress. When I started I took a week and worked with it the way it was. This way it allowed me to see what worked and what didn't and what I wanted to change. Once I figured it out I made the changes and adjustments needed. It worked well but there was always something that I still needed to finish up, last minute touches on this or that. Last week was our transition week, with school starting up this week. Meaning I have 15 NEW kids in my class. Just as I was getting settled, a routine, a groove, art work up, window theme's done…..I have to take it all DOWN. AAAAHHHH, of course I knew this was coming but seriously come on. I've gotten a lot done but of course there are still a few things that have been put on the back burner, for one reason or another. I'm determined to get my classroom completely set up and finished by the end of August. Sure there's always going to be art work to put on our art boards, monthly window themes to do. However the basics cubbie labels, birthday boards, napping charts, child portfolios' etc are done. One big project I keep putting on the back burner is relabeling all the shelves / toys / centers with pictures and labels. Its a big job and its going to be time consuming but I want / need to get it done. It will free up so much more time for me with the kids.

*Eating Out- Simple as that, I'm NOT doing it!!!! The only exception to this one will be if I'm invited out on the weekends to dinner with friends. Although the chances of that happening are slim to none. (more on that later) I went to the commissary this past weekend and picked up plenty to hold me over and cook through out the next few weeks. There really shouldn't be any reason to eat out. This one will be a struggle at times I'm sure. Cooking for one isn't always easy but by not eating out it will help with my Savings goal!!!

*Sweet's & Baking- NOT happening!!!! I think that's pretty self explanatory. I love love love baking but I'm not going to while the hubbs is gone. No particular reason here, just a goal for myself. Will Power People! On top of that…...NO sweets eating at all. Cookies, Cake, Cupcakes, Candy, Ice Cream, anything that could be consider a "dessert". We don't eat a whole lot of sweets to begin with but I'd be lying if I said we didn't at all. Really anyone that says they don't eat sweets is crazy. So cutting it all out for this month (on top of no eating out) while he's gone will help with keeping off a few extra pounds.

*Puppies- Oh those sweet, furry, four legged no good for nothing, hair shedding, barking dogs are our babies even when they do annoy the living crap out of me sometimes. I'll always love them. Truth be told we slack in the "dog walking" department a good bit. Partly because we both get home from work after 5pm, I do dinner, dishes, get ready for the next day, watch a bit of tv, sometimes end up falling asleep on the couch and then the next thing you know its 8pm or later and to dark outside to take them on a walk. So while the hubbs is gone my goal / plan is to walk the pups every evening after I get home from work. I'll give myself the weekends off, if I choose to. ;) Our neighborhood is a small circle, similar to a "U". The total distance starting from the entrance and back around is a mile. Of course I'll have to wait till closer to 7:30-45pm-ish when the sun starts to set and its not blazing hot outside. It will help me from being completely lazy and seeings they'll be home all day by themselves it will get them outta the house. They still have so much energy, it never seems to end. A mile power walk around the neighborhood every evening will be a good addition to staying in shape and building my strength.

Here's to a new month, goals, and finishing what I've starting and sticking with what I've got planned. I I (you) can do anything I put my mind to, and I plan on working hard to stick with and maintain the personal goals I've set for myself. I know its only going to better help me, my husband, and our future.
PS: Did I mention I start taking classes at Austin Peay State University at the end of the month, talk about a full plate. Again more on that to come later.

And just because everyone loves a good selfie!!