After what seemed like the longest month and a half later I was finally on the road headed back to TN. For Good This Time. Well at least for the next few years. I couldn't wait to see my hubbs, I've missed him so much. Some how this seemed like a good idea at the time but the longer the days drug on the more I hated myself for staying. Don't get my wrong I didn't regret it at all, I just missed being able to live life with my love in our new house. I couldn't help but think that if I would have gone when he did then I wouldn't have gotten in that wreck. I was at least grateful that I had gone up in the beginning of May to unpack our house and set it up. One last thing I had to stress over and deal with when I got home.
I ended my last day at EDS (for now, I hope to be back one day) Said my "see you soon's"and headed home to pack up my things. Cory took me to get my car, finally I couldn't wait to have my own car back again. We transferred everything over and I was on my way, well for a short moment that was. I made one last stop to say "see you soon" get hugs and kisses from the Sweet R family. They were the last ones I saw in the South before I left. I couldn't leave with out one last hug!!! These two have my heart and its in a million pieces knowing I'm not going to be able to see them for a while.
|Blowing Kisses as I drove away, breaks my heart.|
Here's to the next 7 hours, just me and the highway. I left much later than I had wanted to but none the less I was on the road headed "home".
It was a long grueling drive, mainly through the night but I finally made it home around 2am and couldn't of been happier. I was so tired I didn't even take a single thing inside. I had a interview in 8 hours and had to be up in 6 hours so I was fast asleep as soon as I laid down.
I loved coming home to a house that was set up, decorated and I could just pick right up. Our house felt like home but Tennessee most defiantly did not. Driving around later the next day I had a lump in my throat the whole time. How am I suppose to do this, starting over, finding a job I love as much as my last, finding friends, building new memories and favorite places to go to. I know it all comes with time and I'll get there but for now I still miss home. I'll always miss home. South Carolina that is. I NEVER in my wildest dreams would have though that I could have loved life in Cola as much as a I did. I was not crazy about it when we moved there at all. But that changed with time. I'm not saying I don't like it here in TN, I haven't been here long enough to give it a chance. I'm sure I'll grow to love it and enjoy it our time. We will make wonderful memories that I'll love and cherish forever! It just takes time and patients. I'm trying just sometimes easier said than done.
I'll start here…….
We have a large covered deck off the back of our house so I picked up this lovely set before I left Cola. I absolutely love it!!! We've never had a nice patio set (just the cheap plastic one from the PX) but not this time. I splurged and couldn't be happier with it. I'm all about saving money and going with the basics of things but this time was different. I for see us having many meals out here, drinks with friends, watching the pups run around and play and seeing the lightening bugs fly through the night. Or in case's like today breakfast on the patio, peach tea, toast with homemade strawberry jam made by yours truly.
I'm trying over here, and that's all I can do. One day at a time, One foot in front of the other.