Friday, July 2, 2010

Worst day EVER :(

The day finally came were I had to send the love of my life off to war. It was the 2nd hardest day of my life by far. Standing there watching him draw his weapon, make sure every last item was packed and all his guys were accounted for. From talking to his PL and BSing with his Squad leader there were a few laughs through out the evening.

Our sweetest friends Crystal, Adam & Rebecca and both there daughters came up to the company are at 11:30pm to see Gabe off that evening. Come to find out we didn't have to be there till 12:30AM. There was no point in going back to the house & having to go through that all over again, so Crystal suggested we go back to the Inn were they were staying and that we did. The 5 of us and two kiddos walked our way over and had a little pow wow in their room. It was nice because we were able to just relax joke around and have a good old time like any other night with friends.

Then the time came were we had to go back to the company area again. Oh I was not ready for this at all. As we walked over there I held his hand as tight as I could and didn't let go at all. Talking to him the whole way there about how much I loved him and how I was looking forward to getting off this island because that would mean he would be back by then.

Shortly after getting back to the company area the guys started getting together and things started to set in. I was not ready for my husband to leave, I can't at all stand being away from him.
We were able to sit together and just cuddle up and enjoy each others company for most of the evening in between two manifests and other things. Then the final "See You Soon" moment came, I had the tightest grip on him and couldn't bring myself to let go.

Watching him walk away from me and joining the rest of his guys in the bus lines was the hardest moment, knowing it would be months before I could touch his face again or fill his kisses and his arms around me. I stood there in the pouring rain with Crystal watching my life walk on to the bus and taking my heart with him. I just wanted to run on and grab him one last time and pull him away with me but I knew I couldn't do that.

Standing proud to be his wife I sent him off to fight this war we call OIF in hopes for a early return. We have a long road ahead of us and its only a count down from here till we are in each others arms again. I love you baby more than words can say and feelings can express. Please hurry home to me and the puppies because we miss you like crazy more and more each and every day.



Anonymous said...

Tiffany, I hurt for you. Thank goodness you have such good friends that support you. and hopefully time will pass quickly. Gabe is in my prayers and of course, so are you. Love, Nene

Nichole said...

Oh sweet girl - seeing those pictures really made me cry. I just can't imagine. Thank you for being such a wonderful wife and friend to Jared - I am so grateful that he has a wonderful person like you to come home to!

♥ Annie ♥ said...

Ughhh...I hate these moments :( I'm so sorry you are having to go through this again...if you need anything, I'm always here.