I firmly believe all dinners should be followed by a fabulously delicious dessert.....however that doesn't happen all that often around our dinner table when its just the two of us. Partly because we really try to watch what we eat and make smart healthy choices.
BUT, tonight was a exception. We've been talking a lot about our future, life in general. There are some big decisions we've been toying over, going back and forth with. Some that leaves neither of us with control over the outcome. Something that I struggle with, not having control or a plan in place. We went to breakfast together this morning before I headed to work. We talked some more about our future plans. I was still so undecided on which way I wanted to go. Not knowing was stressing me out and messing with my head. I went to work and talked with a friend about what was on my mind. After a little conversation I came to the realization that I was over thinking things and making them harder on myself then anything. I was putting to much though and stress in to a situation that wasn't even there. One that should be a huge and exciting part of our life. There in that moment I knew what I wanted to do, I had decided. L gave me the perfect idea on how to get the "ball" conversation rolling that evening. I did put my own spin on it though. On my lunch break toady I went over to the most amazing little bakery / cookie company that is right next to the school I work at.
(Sidetone: its AMAZING!!!! Its torture to because they open at 7am with a fully stocked case of sweet treats that are to die for and a yummy breakfast assortment.)
I picked up two Cheesecake Brownies to bring home for after dinner dessert.
Just as always we went on our evening walk around the block with the pups. I was going back and forth the whole time trying to figure out how I was going to set out our little treat with out him seeing me do it. When we came home he mentioned he was going to go take a shower. BAM!!! There's my chance. So while he was taking a shower I set the table candles lit, dessert plated, beer for him and wine for me. He knew I had a little surprise for him but didn't know what it was. As he was coming down stairs I was trying to open my wine bottle when I sprayed it all down my shirt. Classy right!!!
In that moment when we sat down to enjoy our yummy dessert, I laid it out there and told him my plan. It was scary and exciting all at once, its a huge decision but I know we are making the right one.
It's such a relief to be on the same page and I can't wait to see where this takes us.
I know this is very vague, I'm not being very open with what is going on with us right now but please just keep us in your thoughts and prayers. When the time comes I'm sure I'll update more, when we feel its a good time to share.