Meet Rosie!!

Being my first year as a preschool teacher I've had my challenges for sure but I've had some great times as well. Its still a work in progress every day but I'm managing. I'm always open and looking for new and fun ideas and suggestions to keep the kids engaged and interested. 

I decided to jump on the Elf on the Shelf band wagon. 

We read the book Monday morning and then....

Our Elf was "delivered" to class on Monday, December 1st from Santa. Included was a letter explaining who she was and what she was sent to do. I decided to include the other preschool class in on it since we some what share a room. (our room's are divided by a half wall) I knew they would have a blast with it. We got all the kiddos together and after much deliberation they decided on a name. 

Monday, Dec 1st - So please meet Rosie our Elf. 

Tuesday, Dec 2nd - Rosie swinging between our rooms. 

Wednesday, Dec 3rd - She got into the paint. 

Thursday, Dec 4th - Rosie left a note on the chalk board. 

Friday, Dec 5th - Feeding the baby 

Monday, Dec 8th - Just doing a little finishing. 

 Tuesday, Dec 9th Rosie decided to have a little fun with the toilet paper. 

(the 4 year old class, oops)

 Wednesday, Dec 10th - Rosie's just hanging around. 

Thursday, Dec 11th - Rosie went on Strike for the day, we had a ruff day yesterday. 

Friday, Dec 12th - Rosie came back and decked the bathroom. 

Monday, Dec 15th - Rosie brought magic seeds back from the North Pole for the kiddos to plant and watch grow. 

 Tuesday, Dec 16th - Trying to build a Snowman with Marshmallow's. 

 Wednesday, Dec 17th - Climbing the walls, I feel you Rosie. Sometime they make me wanna climb the walls and get out to. 

Thursday, Dec 18th -  Rosie made a snow angel with flour & glitter (not my doings) and as I was cleaning up before nap time, some how a flour fight started and it was every were including all over me. The kids had a blast and really enjoy it, we got lots of laughs out of it. 

Friday, Dec 19th - Rosie copied herself and them plastered the pictures all over the classroom and then hung herself from the ceiling!!! 

Monday, Dec 22nd - Rosie had a little fun with the stickers over the weekend. 

Tuesday, Dec 23rd - Rosie brings a note to the kiddo's letting them know she's heading back to the North Pole and she wont be here when they return from Christmas break but not to worry she'll be back next year. 

Thankfully since I'm doing this at school we don't have to worry about the weekends and it makes my life so much easier. Because lets face it sometimes I'm having to wait till after 6pm for all the kids to leave before I can move the stupid thing. They enjoy it and so that makes it all worth it right. I don't know that its something I'd do if we ever had a kid though. 

Still fun and another way to get into the Holiday spirit.

Until Next Year!!!! 

Getting to the Valley......

......was no easy task. 

I've been looking forward to today for the last 2-3 weeks, since I decided I was going to AZ for Christmas. I haven't been back to the valley in almost 5 years. We were in fact still living in Hawaii the last time I went. It's going to be a much needed break from life and my busy hectic schedule because lets face it, starting school in January its just gonna keep going. And as much as I want time to speed right on by I need things to slow down just a bit. 

I didn't wanna bother any one with driving me to the airport or picking me up since my flight left so early so I packed the and headed to the airport. Not before a minor heart attack though. Friday night I dropped the pups off at a friends who was so kind enough to watch them. So Saturday morning when I woke up at 3:30am to make the almost hour drive to the airport I didn't think to unset the alarm because I didn't have to let outside. After a couple last minute things around the house I was headed out the door just after 4am. When the alarm went off with what seemed like the loudest possible noise ever. I'm sure if my neighbors would have been at home they would have heard it. My heart was racing, I couldn't figure out how to turn it off and I just knew the police were gonna be showing up any minute. Finally I figured it out although it seemed like the longest couple of seconds ever. Loading the car and heading out my heart was still racing, still waiting for that phone call from the alarm company or the police department. Which thankfully never came. I was able to chat with the hubbs all the way to the airport, I found parking and told him to make sure he remembered were I parked lol. A lot of help he's gonna be in a week right. Lets hope I remember. This is the first time flying out of Nashville, its the busiest time of year and I was on my own so I wanted to make sure I had plenty of time to catch my 7:45 flight. All was going well until I went to check in when the self service machine told me I had to see the gate agent for my seat assignment because I didn't have a seat. Ummm, excuse me. I'm not on a stand by ticket, the seat has already been bought and paid for. I stood there for a couple minutes but everyone was so busy I just continued on with checking it. Completely forgetting to check my bag in or even see if I could change my seat. Panic set in again, what in the crap was I going to do. I had a plane to catch and a layover with another plane to catch. Finally I was heading through security when of course my bag had to be searched, oh dear lord what else on earth could happen this morning. I made it to my gate and asked about my "not having a seat" the kind gentleman explained to me that my connecting flight in ALT hadn't opened up yet so the system was unable to allow me to select a seat or sign me one. Ok so that made so much more sense and I able to stop panicking. Wow it'd been a morning and it was just barley 6am. The sun was coming out though and Starbucks was calling my name. Not before a quick Airport Bathroom Selfie of course.

Finally back at my gate I enjoyed my cheese danish while waiting to board my flight. I was exhausted and could wait to catch a couple hours of sleep until I realized it was only a 35 minute flight. We arrived in ALT with just over a hour to spare before my next flight took off. Landing at terminal E having to ride the Sky Train to terminal A which was mmmm only 5 terminals away. Not to mention the long walk to get to the Sky Train. I was hungry, tired, my bags were heavy, I was hot and I needed to get my seat assigned first. Goodness grasiou what a morning it had been. Finally getting to my gate and getting a seat I didn't even think twice about it when the kind man gave me my ticket. I grabbed something to eat from a non-fast food place (seeing's I've completely given up FF with the hubbs is gone) and sat down to eat. This creepy man came over asking about my boots and was trying to feel the thickness of them. Seriously dude, you want to ask before you go touching something that someone is wearing. It made me so uncomfortable, and then he just stood there for what seemed like 10 minutes, awkward moment of the day for sure. 

We all boarded the plane, and I quickly figured out how many people work the checked baggage system and get out of paying for their bags. Pack a carry on roller back as though your going to carry it on and then at the gate take them up on the gate check to "help" save over head space. Seriously about 20+ bags were dropped and tagged at the gate with no service fee charge. You can't tell me at least half if not more of those people didn't have a plan. 

Walking down the aisle to my seat I knew I was in the back by the seat number but I didn't think I'd be the very last freaking row. I should have known that was going to happen. At least the seat still reclined a good bit. Again expecting to now get some good sleep the fight attendant announced they were going to be showing a movie I had been wanting to see. Dolphin Tales 2, call me a kid but I saw the first one and just though it was to cute. Only down fall was I forgot my head phones in my car. I even reminded myself to get them when I parked and still forgot. So I splurged and paid the $2. that Delta was charging for them. Seriously I remember when they were free, well that and when you didn't have to pay for checked bags. My how times have changed. I did manage to get a hour or so of sleep after the movie. 

We arrived in PHX about 25 minutes early, so I was able to get my bags and head outside before my Mother-in-Love arrived. In tow with her was one of the hubbs Aunt and our two nephews who I hadn't seen in forever. Finally after a crazy morning I had made it and felt like I could really start to relax and enjoy the Holiday. 

5 day's of Christmas...

This past week at work we've had a Secret project going on and its been kinda fun. I always enjoy doing these kinda things during the Holiday's. The suspense of not knowing who has you, or who everyone else has is fun. Thankfully it was only a week long. Each day was a theme we were given a sheet to feel out sharing what our favorite was.

Day 1- Drink / Soda
Day 2- Candy
Day 3-Candle Scent
Day 4- Snack / Chip
Day 5- Final Gift

*One the 1st Day of Christmas my secret santa gave to me:

(I don't drink soda so my secret santa got me a sweet tea. )

*On the 2nd Day of Christmas my secret santa gave to me:

 (I don't eat candy, I gave it up for the deployment. Little Debbie snack cakes)

*On the 3rd Day of Christmas my secret santa gave to me:

 (A beautifully smelling Cinnamon Apple Candle)

*On the 4th Day of Christmas my secret santa gave to me:

(A box of yummy Wheat Thins & not pictured because I already ate them, a bag of Baked Lay's)

*On the 5th Day of Christmas my secret santa gave to me:

(The finale day, two infinity scarves, two pairs of fuzzy socks and a pink throw) 

I love this time of year and all the fun and love it brings!!! I had a idea of who had me by Wednesday evening and I was spot on. Why it was non other than the other Tiffany who works at our school. Which I though was to funny. 

Epic Fail :(

Last weekend I went with Sarah to the Pottery Room to do a little painting. I wasn't sure what I wanted to paint and quickly remembered, I was in need of a gift for the In-Loves. This seemed perfect since lets face it we really don't need any more platters ourselves. We are having Christmas lunch / dinner at their house so we'd be able to use it then. I went back Yesterday to pick it up (turn around time is abt a week) on my way to a friends house. I was so excited about it and couldn't wait to show it off. It wasn't until I was literally walking out of the store that I realized I totally messed up. 

I spelled MY OWN LAST NAME WRONG!!!!!

How in the world did this happen, I stenciled the letters out ahead of time. Looked over it several times to make sure spacing and spelling was perfect. Clearly I didn't look good enough. I probably write make last name at least once if not more a day. We've been together 8 years, I have it tattooed on my ankle, I have it Monogrammed around my house. How in the world. Maybe it was my nerve's that got to me. Being in a new place, a new friend, not wanting to make a fool of myself. I don't know. 

I laugh about it now, but am still so annoyed with myself. 

I still plan on giving it to them as a gift and seeing how long it takes them to notice it. I sent a picture to the hubbs last night and he didn't notice it till I asked him if he saw anything wrong. 

Heck I'm sure it will make for a great conversation piece for the years to come. 

Daughter-in-Law of the year award right here people. 

"Christmas 2014"

7 Year Anniversary Pictures!!!

 I'm absolutely head over heels in love with our 7 Year Anniversary pictures. I was introduced to an amazing local photographer. By far hands down one of the best photographers I've ever worked with. I can't wait to use her again when the hubbs comes home next year. I am so in love with this man and its crazy to look back and think that we were married just over 7 years ago and that we've been together for 8 years. We're more in love today then we were back then and I can't wait to see were the next 7+ years takes us. Not to mention the fact that he's relaxed so much with having to put up with my yearly photo request. We've come a long way in that department lol. He hates more than anything having his picture taken, but he know's it's important to me. He's my world and I'm completely smitten with this life we're going through together. I narrowed it down the best I could, but I simply couldn't help myself. The cow's photo bombing are one of my favorite parts, they were every were on the pasture. J's family owns the land and she does an incredible job. Walking out of the house the morning of our photoshoot, I quickly snagged our Monogram canvas off the wall that my wonderful friend made for us, I knew I had to incorporate it in. I think it worked out perfect!!! 

Hope you enjoy them almost as much as I do!! 

My Saturday

With only two local Craft shows left of the season, (that I knew of at least) I was looking forward to a day of shopping and holiday fun. After a early morning chat with the hubbs I tried to go back to sleep but the pups had other plans. Dingo needed to go outside but I was so comfy in bed. Finally 8-ish rolled around and I figured I'd just give in. I let them outside and started making some breakfast. Half way though Dingo was having a fit to come in, go figure right. Then Bailey started at the door as well. When I let her in she didn't smell so great but I couldn't figure it out. Next thing I know I looked over at Dingo and noticed he was covered in mud and poop. (its been raining all week, so our backyard is super muddy) It had to of been on Bailey I just couldn't tell because of her coloring. I quickly kicked them outside while I figured out a plan. It was freezing cold out, they needed a bath and I was hoping to head out the door with in the next 30 minutes or so. I put on my shoes, grabbed some towels, shampoo and went for it. The stupid water hose had so many kinks in it, 50 feet of mess. I stretched it all the way out in the yard through the mud and finally got it working. Needless to say the puppies were not so happy with me after I was finished washing them. But hey the feeling was mutual. My hands were freezing, my shoes and pants were soaked from the knees down. Not the way I wanted to start the day. Thanks to them trampling through the house the floors now needed a quick mop over. 

Eventually I was dressed and headed out the door to check out the holiday craft shows. I didn't even get all the way out of the neighborhood when I realized I left my wedding ring on the kitchen counter.   As crappy as it sounds I didn't want to turn around and go in to disturb the pups. Stop one, after I finally found it was a complete let down. $1. admission should have been a given. I literally walked in walked around and left. I headed over to the High School were the other one was being held, I figured it had to be better. I mean HS's generally do a pretty good job at putting them on. I should have known again with $1 admission that it was going to be a disaster. I didn't even walk around the whole thing, it just wasn't worth it. So much for my day of shopping. Nothing like a little trip to Target to turn my day around. I never leave there empty handed and always come out with more then I went in with. I had to run in Kohl's for a gift for my Father In Love and the guy at the register must have been having a really good day because he was just beside himself that I had to wait in line to simply purchase one item. I wasn't complaining though, even better after he decided to given me a discount on top of the sales item I was already purchasing. Score!!! A local Thrift / Antique store here  had posted pictures up on FB a few days back of some Fiesta Ware one of the booths had in. With my love of all things Fiesta I really wanted to go check it out to see if there were any pieces I didn't have. But I was just there last Saturday, and it wasn't exactly on my way home either. Decisions Decisions!!! I figured what the heck not like I have any thing to loose, I'll go in just check out that booth and head out. Thankfully I did, there was a beautiful orange over sized large serving bowl that was perfect. I didn't have a piece like that and for $40 it was a complete steal so I had to get it. My day of shopping was turning around. I headed home to check on the pups knowing I'd be heading out later that afternoon for a little girl time with my new friend Sarah. We met up a few hours later at a local Pottery Painting Room to try our hand at painting. I kinda had a idea of what we were going to be doing we had a very similar place in Cola. I went in not knowing at all what I wanted to paint when Sarah mentioned doing something for her sister as a gift. Hello light bulb, I still needed a gift for the In-Loves and what better thing then a hand painted platter. It would be great because then we can use it for Christmas dinner. I can't pick it up till next Saturday once its been fired and finished but I'll be sure to share a picture when I do get it. I had such a great time chatting with Sarah and getting to know her more. I've been attending church with her and her little family over the last couple weeks and its been a great addition to my weekends. I can't thank Kate (at Kate Tell's Stories) for connecting the two of us!!! Moving's a struggle but I'm finding my grove and getting out there when I can. 

On the way home I made one last stop at BB&B for a little gift looking. Having a brother who lives in the same state as your family makes shopping so much easier. Another gift purchased and checked off the list. Best part is I had two coupons expecting to only be able to use one, I was waiting to see which one would give me a better deal when the cashier said she would run them both SCORE!!!! My day was complete and it was still early, only 5:30. I had though about going to the local Christmas Parade and Tree Lighting Ceremony but it was so chilly out and still a bit ugly from all the rain we've been having so I decided to call it a night and headed home. I made a yummy quick dinner and enjoyed a glass of wine while watching some Netflix. This Apple TV over Cable has really grown on my over the last 6 months, were has it been all my life!!! My Saturday in a not so little nut shell, I guess that's what happens when you haven't blogged in what seems like ages.

Of course a post wouldn't be complete complete with out a few random pictures!!!  

I did drive pass Public Square and snapped a picture of the downtown Christmas Tree. Such a beauty!

I picked up this fun mug at Target, I got myself one during black Friday shopping with a T on it and loved it so much I had to get the hubbs one. The Orange FiestaWare bowl I got. I took a picture next to our bread bowl to send the hubbs for a size comparison. 

And just a little Sunday Morning Selfie before heading out to Church this morning!!! 

Here's to hopping back on the blogging bandwagon and getting back into the swing of things!! 

Merry Christmas 2014 (our card & letter)

A Year of many changes good and not so. We rang in the New Year in the middle of Time Square watching the ball drop. Bucket list: check. Followed by an unexpected snow storm, causing us to drive back to South Carolina. Mid January the girls and I met up in Miami for our 2nd annual Country Music Cruise. Early February we took a trip to Tennessee to do a little house hunting and enjoyed catching up with some of our Hawaii Army family. Gabe Graduated his final group of PTV’s going through BCT, his time on the Trail was quickly coming to a close. April was a big month for several reasons Gabe received his EIB (Expert Infantry Badge). We bought and closed on our very first home in Clarksville, TN. We celebrated my 27th birthday with some great friends. Gabe and the pup’s bid far-well to Ft. Jackson and Aloha to Ft. Campbell. While I stayed back to finish out the school year at EDS. The first weekend of May I drove up to TN to celebrate Gabe’s 31st birthday. Our house hold good’s were also being delivered the same day so we were able to get our new home unpacked and set up. Later that month I had a unfortunate accident and wrecked my car, just a week before I was suppose to move to TN. We can’t say Thank You enough to the Meyer’s family for everything they did to help. Finally making my way to TN, I started working shortly after I arrived. I excepted a position at a local Preschool in there Pre-K program. It’s been an adjustment but I’m enjoying it. Gabe spent his first couple of months at Ft. Campbell as a Platoon SGT before he was moved to his current position as a Squad Leader which he seems to be enjoying. The summer months came and went far to quickly. Gabe was away for the month of August at JRTC training at Ft. Polk. While I took a course at the local College in preparation to start school in the spring. We were lucky enough to have The Gabriel’s come out for a visit early September. We took full advantage of having guest’s and played tourist the whole week. We also took a few fall road trips that included South Carolina, West Virginia, and a Anniversary get away to Chattanooga. November by far was the hardest month as we embarked on our 3rd deployment. We said our “See You Soon’s” as Gabe headed off to Afghanistan just day’s before our 7 Year Wedding Anniversary. I’ve managed to stay busy since he’s left to help pass the time. He has settled in as best he can and has been quite busy since then. If you think about it please keep him and his Unit in your thoughts and prayers for a safe and quick return. I spent Thanksgiving with some of our fabulous Army Family, The Brooks. Followed by some traditional Black Friday Shopping with a Friend. I’m excited to said I’ll be spending Christmas in Arizona, thanks to the Gabriel’s. It’s been quite some time since I’ve been back so it will be great to catch up with family and friends. 

With that being said we do have a spare bedroom and I’m open for visitors starting now, through next fall. Or any time for that matter, your always welcome!! :) We hope that 2014 has been a great for you and your family. 

We can’t wait to see what the New Year has in store for us. 

Happy Holiday’s 

( Now that our big not so great news is out, I'll be blogging more about our journey through deployment number 3. )

This is the 8th Year we've ordered our Christmas Cards from ShutterFly and we will continue to do so in the future. I absolutely love the options, amazing deals and sales they offer. Not to mention the quick turn around time on shipping. Be sure and check them out for all of your photo gift giving needs. 

My 1st & 2nd Swirlz Experience

Ive always wanted to try out the Tag It Art place in Cola, when we were living there but never got around to it. So when a couple co-workers suggested going I was all over the idea. Girls night and trying something new I'm in!!! 

We looked through the online gallery calendar to see what painting we wanted to do and came to the decision on a pretty yellow flower painting. It looked simple and easy enough for our first go around. Well lets just say looks can be very deceiving, it was anything but easy when it came down to the flowers. And there were a ton of them we had to do. Of course the instructors make it look so so easy and I'm left sitting there like 5 steps behind. We laughed, joked around, had to have the instructor give us a little one on one assistants, drank a little and of course acted out a little. We had such a great time and were already talking about going back again. These two girls are so sweet and I'm glad I've gotten the chance to meet them both. 

Well Amy and I were long over due for another girls painting night. Sadly life has gotten in the way and Gill has had to move back home for a little while :( We are all so so sad. With Christmas right around the corner it was a given we had to do a Christmas themed painting. Seriously who doesn't love the Grinch?!?!? The hand was actually already stenciled on, so of course this had to be way easy. Much more promising then the 1st time around right?!?! RIGHT!!!! NOT. Of course the background was easy till you got into the tight skinny corners. We didn't realizes all the little detail that was actually in the painting. Talk about tediousness. But we managed, a little bubbly and lots of laughs. We were both complaining through the evening and taking it out on the painting. No way we were painters, artist or such, but once we finished we were already looking to see which one we wanted to do next. 

I had the perfect place right in our entry way to hang it up. I just switched out a Hawaiian print I had hanging. I absolutely love it. Its so fun and cute!!! 

Stay tuned for a 3rd trip here soon!!!! :) 

30 days of Thanks.

Day 1- I'm so thankful for Saturday morning cuddles and sleeping in with my love and pups. It's the simple things in life yall!!!

Day 2- I'm thankful that we've been able to make some good friends here in Clarksville to hang out with and of course enjoy the company of the ones we already knew here!!

Day 3- I'm thankful for mid-day lunch dates with my handsome Soldier!!!

Day 4- I'm thankful for left over Black Out Cake from the Cheese Cake Factory. ‪#‎itsthelittlething‬

Day 5- I'm thankful for our puppies. Even though they annoy the crap outta me sometimes, I know they'll be there waiting at the door greeting us when we come home each day. They really do complete our little family.

Day 6- I'm so thankful and blessed to have such amazing and loving In-Loves. I can truly say I got lucky in that department.

Day 7- I'm thankful for good days, it might sound silly but it's what works for me. I'm sure there will be bad days, horrible down right awful days but today is a good day and for that I'm thankful.

Day 8- I'm thankful for my mom and that she drug me to and opened my eyes to the world of Craft fairs and Craft shows when I was younger because they are so much fun!!! Totally worth today's 40 minute drive and can't wait next weekend, there's 2!!!

Day 9- I'm so so thankful for my amazing husband of 7 years today!!! I'd be lost with out you baby, I love you to pieces Always and Forever and Thensome!!!! Happy 7 year Anniversary!!!!!

Day 10- I'm thankful that 9 Years ago (11-09-05, also our wedding anniversary) the hubbs decided to join the Army, if it wasn't for his service I don't know that we would have met. 

Day 11- I'm thankful not just today but every day for the sacrifice my hubbs made to join the Military and for everyone that has walked and is walking the same path that he is currently. Happy Veterans Day to all those Past and Present.

Day 12- I'm thankful for early morning walks before work with the pups, even if it is in the low 30's outside. Makes starting my morning so much more productive. 

Day 13- I'm so Thankful that our 3 Star evaluation is over!!! I kept saying all week I'm not going to get picked and guess what my class got picked. There may or may not have been several tears shed before during and after!!!!! Thankful for such supportive and fabulous staff during this whole ordeal!!!

Day 14- I'm thankful that I've got our Christmas Cards ordered Christmas Letter written, it's Aloha Friday and Girls night out with some of my fabulous co-workers!!

Day 15- I'm thankful I got to spend 5 fabulous hours shopping away at the Christmas Village in Nashville with a fabulous Co-Worker. I always love Craft Fairs / Show's. There so much and always gets me in the holiday spirit. 

Day 16-  I'm thankful for Lazy Sunday's in our PJ's!!!

Day 17- I'm thankful to be able to wake up to snowy winter mornings. 

Day 18- I'm thankful for morning walks with the pups, its of course a bit chilly out but its become a nice way to start my mornings before work. 

Day 19-  I'm thankful for that little orange box that showed up on my door step today!!! Hello ShutterFly Holiday Cards!!! (click on the link for a direct access to ShutterFly Website!!!)

Day 20- I'm thankful for my study group class, I'm not thrilled to be going (long story) but tonight was actually enjoyable and I was able to talk to a few people during our pot luck. 

Day 21- I'm thankful for my little brother, he's not so little only 3 years younger than me but he's by far my favorite best brother ever. He's always there when I need him and I couldn't be more proud of the young man he's grown into be!!!  

Day 22- I'm thankful for today!!! Its been a great day, a fabulous day. I have so much to be thankful for but for today I'm simply thankful for today and everything that has come. 

 Day 23- I'm thankful for the very small benefit we get from this awful thing we are going through right now. Although I'd give every bit of it back not to be going through it, I'm trying to see the positive in the situation. (Veg I know)

Day 24- I'm thankful for for my Grandparents, They've been my biggest role models by far and I can only hope that I live up to half the people they are and do them proud!!! 

Day 25- I'm thankful for my Mamaw, taken far to soon from us. But Blessed to have had her in my life. Today would have been her 74th birthday!!! Happy Birthday in Heaven Mamaw!!! 

Day 26- I'm thankful for a 4 day weekend ahead of me, I'm looking forward to enjoying some Sweet Peach Tea with a shot or two of something fancy to mix it up with. Staying up late and sleeping in, it's just shy of a perfect weekend. 

Day 27- I'm thankful for our Army friends turned family, we are blessed to have such wonderful support system with in them all and someone to spend the holidays with when we are so far away from home. 

Day 28- I'm thankful for the few friends that I have made here in TN so far. I had a absolutely blast Black-Friday shopping with a dear friend!! 6 hours and we could have still kept going if only we had things to shop for. 

Day 29- I'm thankful that 8 years ago today I met my prince charming, the love of my life. Who would of though that one simple phone call would have gotten us were we are today. 

Day 30- I'm thankful that I've found the courage to step out of my box and started attending church again. Thanks to a fellow Milispouse blogger for connecting me with another Milispouse blogger here in TN. 

"I'll Fly Away" ........I Can't Believe It's Been a Year Already...

I really and truly can not believe its been a year since I lost the most amazing woman in my life. 

Read Part One How it Happened

Read Part Two Forever Changed

I remember it like it was yesterday, hating the world and everyone in it for taking away one of the most important people in my life. There's not a single day that goes by that I don't think about her. Wishing so badly I could call her and tell her that we survived our trip to NYC, that it snowed in Cola, that we moved states, that we bought our first home, that I'm going back to school. I want to tell her what we are going through right now, and have her support. There's just so much that I want to tell her, I always called her whenever I went on a road trip so she could keep me company and now I've got nothing. Going home to Texas doesn't seem to matter as much any more. That side of my family is completely changed now that she is gone, its heart breaking what the loss of a person can do to a family. Many day's it still doesn't seem real that she's not here any more. I still have her phone number / contact in my phone with her address. I can't bring myself to delete it. If only I had voice mails from her to hear her sweet voice. She always had the best advice and stood behind every decision I made, even if she didn't like it or think that it was the best. She was my best friend my everything and now she's my angel. She was the rock that held our family together and its slowly slipping apart now. As much as I hate some days that I moved away from home because it mint I missed out on so much time with her, I truly believe it was the best decision I ever made. Even more so now, I'm not sure how I could physically go on living in the same town knowing she was not there, were I could just drive over and pop in. It's hard I struggle with it almost daily. Its on the top 5 of the worst days of my 27 years for sure. I said it before and I truly believe it, she held on for me for one more day not to leave us on our Anniversary. I remember the last conversation I had with her on the phone, I had just gotten off work and I was headed on post. Driving over the bridge I told her I loved her so much and to get better because I was coming home to see her. It took all she had to respond back to me, but she knew it was me and she told me she loved me and that's the best feeling in the world. My heart breaks, how did a year go by so quickly. I'll never be the same, I know I have to keep moving forward with my life but there's some days I just don't know how I'm going to get through. 

Thank the Lord I have an amazingly supportive husband because if it wasn't for him I'd be a complete  disaster. 

I miss you Mamaw so so much, you were the worlds best Mamaw ever!!!! 11-10-13

I am so grateful that God blessed me with two wonderful grandmothers. Whom I'm proudly named after and wouldn't have it any other way. 

Hands down Coolest Mamaw ever!!!! Love you My Angel!!!!